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Reminder to Self and Reminder to You

Be brave. Do it scared. Refer to the sections “Scary, Scary, Scary” (page 12), “Defending Your Weakness” (page 16), “Fear Is Boring” (page 19), “The Fear You Need and the Fear You Don’t Need” (page 22), and “The Road Trip” (page 24) in Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert

I feel a strong pull to share a dream I had recently.❤️

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Photo by Jake Peterson on Unsplash Long time no see! B ack  and re ady for  action--I don't know. M aybe not re ally just bec ause I don't know how often I will post but here's tod ay's post  anyw ay !   Enjoy ! DISCLAIMER: (Anyone who knows the meaner side of me is gonna be like, “Really? YOU’RE posting this? After all the times—“ Blah, blah, blah, yes, I am.) PLEASE, excuse any writing errors. When I write like this, which gives me PURE JOY, which is why I do my best to do it without caring what anybody else thinks (REALLY hard for me to do, by the way—totally faking it till I make it when I post my writing), I just want to get all of my thoughts out as quickly as possibly and as accurately as possible (It’s just not the same sometimes when you can—yes, technically—get the same idea out but not with the same words you originally imagined using to get them out.) and with as much enjoyment as possible. There are not many areas in my life where I can let my anxiety and

"10 Things Yungblud Can't Live Without"

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1. Me😉 But for real, I love this clip too much.😭❤  As the kids say now, this video lives rent-free in my head. (Look how cute he is, my god.😭❤😍) Clip link: https://youtu.be/A2BwbM891q0 Full-length original: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vnm0_-GvZZ8

Listening to "Fire" by Sleeping with Sirens at 11 o'clock at night while driving home from Taco Bell is my comfort item.

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"Politics is destroying families/communities/friendships/AMERICA/etc."

No, terrible human beings with "opinions" that harm others are destroying families, communities, friendships, America, the world, etc., and today's political climate allows people's true colors to show more and more.

I don't know who needs to hear this, but...

A terrible human being believing in something doesn't necessarily make that idea bad. It just means a terrible human being happens to believe in that thing, i.e. a millionaire with a private jet believing in climate change doesn't make climate change and wanting to do something to fix it a bad idea.

You’ve ever been in a happy depression?

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  Image by Tumisu from Pixabay Let me explain. I’ve been feeling weird lately. I don’t know how else to describe it. If you ask me how I’m doing, I’m doing okay. Sometimes, I’m even doing well, but I have this background tiredness, and it affects some things. Not all things but some. The biggest thing I notice it affect is my will to feed myself. I know I need to eat, and I want to eat healthily, but I barely want to eat much less something I might not like, such as healthy food. In Louisiana (and from what I’m learning from viral memes, all over), food is a big part of our culture. Food isn’t just for sustenance. It’s for enjoyment. There’s an emotional aspect to eating, and for me, not having that positive emotional aspect to it, not being excited to eat whatever it is makes it really hard to eat it. And I don’t even feel hungry sometimes. I get tired or bored of eating after a few bites, and at that point, I really don’t feel hungry anymore. I probably need to have healthy snacks t

What's Bothering Me Right Now

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Everything. Or maybe not a lot but just so intensely it feels like a lot. Two main things bothering me right now about this week: Skills check-off for nursing school and my surgical consult this week (Yeah, I need surgery.). Check-offs bother everyone in nursing school, and I really dislike check-offs because it’s hands-on, not theory. I like theory—obviously, I’ve got four degrees and plan to go back to school for at least five more degrees (Master’s this time! But maybe also some more Bachelor’s later.). I dislike that I’m going to mess up. That fear paralyzes me, and I cope with overwhelm by avoidance already as it is. I feel as if I don’t know where to start, so I don’t start until I absolutely have no choice but to do so—for example, if I’m standing at a station to practice at school in a room of teachers and other students practicing. I can only stand there doing nothing for so long. I am hyperaware of how awkward I appear at every moment in public. Another strategy I use to avoi