Reminder to Self and Reminder to You

Be brave. Do it scared. Refer to the sections “Scary, Scary, Scary” (page 12), “Defending Your Weakness” (page 16), “Fear Is Boring” (page 19), “The Fear You Need and the Fear You Don’t Need” (page 22), and “The Road Trip” (page 24) in Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert

2020--Let’s Reflect on This Past Year

Image by Gerhard G. from Pixabay

I can’t believe today is 2021. The year itself sounds so futuristic like it is out of my lifetime, but it’s only twenty-seven years after the year I was born.(-: The year I’m supposed to graduate with my fourth college degree, the one I will finally get a career with—at least for a little while. Time for me to be a real adult and get a job and support myself and continue figuring out the rest of this life. Get closer and closer to living out my dreams—marrying Aaron, having kids with him, five or six more degrees (all Master’s and a Doctorate or two), traveling, changing this world to make it a better place for ALL.


But the point of this post is to reflect on 2020 from my point of view. I feel privileged and honestly ashamed to admit that this year has not been very hard for me—a mix of being introverted and also probably not following stay at home orders as much as I should have. Switching to virtual classes was heaven-sent for me. I love driving, and I prefer living at home even with the two-hour roundtrip commute, but two hours a day and switching back and forth from waking up/getting ready mode to driving mode to school mode to driving mode to errand mode to driving mode to home mode with schoolwork and housework to do was EXHAUSTING. Not having clinicals for half a semester was also nice. Granted it was one of the clinicals I was looking forward to the most—OB—but clinicals make me nervous, so the break was very welcome regardless of which class it was for. It was the first time I passed any HESIs, and I passed THREE at that. It was the year of my absolute favorite nursing courses.


Recently, it was the year of my first holistic medical appointment. I visited a holistic dentist enlightenDENTAL in New Orleans this week (Not sponsored—I just loved my visit that much.), and I’m looking forward to this new journey as a holistic medical patient.


The year where I finally admitted to myself that I’m not living the life I want to live, but that doesn’t mean I’m not happy or don’t enjoy the things I do have in my life because no matter how bad I’m feeling, my answer to “How are you?” is genuinely “okay” and often better. I’m feeling that bad moments don’t make for a bad life or even a bad day.


In 2021, I’m looking forward to creating the life I want to live and doing more to support my body in being its healthiest. I can’t wait to start budgeting my own income! Let’s hope I can afford all the things I want, which honestly isn’t really that extravagant.


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